today i saw you in my eyes
today i saw you in the mirror
however, that’s not unusual
i see you everyday
i see you in the way i talk
i see you in the compassion i have for others
if only i could see you in person one more time
AMK
Poetry
Why
I often ask God a question
It’s simply “why God”
I feel like I’m not suppose to ask him that
Growing up in a Christian home
I knew not to ask God why
I know that God works in
mysterious ways
But the human side of me needs to know
I need to know certain things
I need to know that I’m not alone
I need to know why he took the people I love
I need to know where he was during their and really to be honest my pain
Why did he not heal them
Why does he not fix thing when we/I know he can
As a child we are always asking why
I just feel like sometimes as an adult, we are no longer allowed to ask certain questions
However, I ask God all the time
that simple yet complex question WHY
Its okay to ask, it’s okay not to fully understand
He will always in the quiet, stillness of the night, answer your WHY
AMK
Again
It’s that time of year again when I don’t have the words to express how much I miss and love you.
How you left me and now I have a void that I don’t know how to fill.
Honestly I don’t know if I want to fill the void of you being gone.
No one can ever take your place.
AMK
Faith
Faith is about seeing the unseen.
But what if you can’t.
People say all it takes is Faith the size of a mustard seed.
What if you only have Faith the size of a grain of sand?
Can you still believe in the unseen?
AMK
The Apple Tree
In the meadow of the apple tree is where I find the peace that is being longed for
I hear the wind as it blows through the leaves. The wind is calming & whispers to me
I see the colors of the apples in the wind. They bounce in the air, as a ball bounces on the ground
The meadow is a resting place away from the hustle of the outside world
Quite is here….Peace is here
In the meadow of the apple tree is where I will be.
AMK
A Little Talk
I had a little talk with God
He has to hear me
I cry out every night
I know he hears me
I can’t beg him
I was taught better than that
But oh how I want to
So if he answered me before
I know he will do the same now
He knows my heart
He knows my plea
He knows what I need at this point
He has never failed me yet
AMK
A Dream
It’s still blows my mind that I can still hear your voice
I still turn around to see if it is you
I still don’t understand how I can smell you in a crowd
Yet, I still look for you no matter where I am
I still get taken back, because I can still feel your touch
I still close my eyes to take it all in
I always wonder if my thoughts are true
That you are right next to me
I want it to be true that you never left me
That you are still guiding me through life
I know it’s a dream
I know it’s my imagination
I know that you can be all of those things
That I feel it when I need you the most
I would just give anything to hear your voice one more time
Or to have you hug me in a way only you could
I will keep this dream, because I need you close every second of everyday
I know one thing is true
The love I have for you is beyond unconditional
I miss you more every day
And the void never stops growing
I will see you again one day
And all of my dreams will come true
Until that day I will keep my dream alive
AMK
Christmas 2018
I was wondering what this Christmas would feel like
Since all three of you are gone
I still play memoirs in my mind like a movie reel
I can’t decided if I should be happy, jealous or angry
Except I have all 3 at once
Happy that you are finally free of the pain
Jealous that the three of you are together
Angry that you left me down here to figure it all out
But, I look around me and see all the blessings that I have
The real love I have found
New family that welcomed me with open arms
An old family that stepped up to fulfill their role
Friends that go beyond the call of duty
I may still have lots of question left
However, one day I know answers will come
Until that happens, I do know that I will miss and love you everyday
Nothing will ever change that
AMK
Eleven Years
It’s been eleven years since you left this world
I can’t say it hurts any less today than it did that day
So much has changed in that time
I still pick up my phone to call you
I still wonder if you would be proud of me
There are days that I can’t breath because I miss you so much
There are days that I catch myself laughing at your sayings
It’s not true that time heals all wounds
My heart still aches
I will always love you that I know will never change
AMK
Some Days
Some days will be harder than others.
Some days will fly by and others will crawl by.
Some days I will wonder how I can make it.
Some days I will feel your strength and it will push me through.
But, all my days I will love you and miss you.
AMK
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