Christmas 2018

I was wondering what this Christmas would feel like

Since all three of you are gone

I still play memoirs in my mind like a movie reel

I can’t decided if I should be happy, jealous or angry

Except I have all 3 at once

Happy that you are finally free of the pain

Jealous that the three of you are together

Angry that you left me down here to figure it all out

But, I look around me and see all the blessings that I have

The real love I have found

New family that welcomed me with open arms

An old family that stepped up to fulfill their role

Friends that go beyond the call of duty

I may still have lots of question left

However, one day I know answers will come

Until that happens, I do know that I will miss and love you everyday

Nothing will ever change that